I'm Blind

I’m walking
Paralyzed, but still walking
The same broken road.
I’ve been there
I know those two mountains
Blind, but still I know those two mountains
Sipping their darkness
Their bitterness, loneliness
Dead hopes and hardly beating dreams.

I am not seducing memories
Not waking up the distant passions
But I’m Cinderella
I don’t want what I want
I drink misery cooled with pain
Climb the stairs
And lose my sense of responsibility
On the forbidden steps
Pretending that nothing happened
I drink my black coffee
So convinced
It won’t change me into a ghost
So convinced
I don’t like it
So drinking it
With so much waiting.

I’m blind
I’m the war settled between
Words and the shattered sidewalks
The world that is so crowded
So warm
So destroyed
So old
Like humanity that failed to know
How it feels like to be homeless
Sleep hungry covered with
Ruminated newspapers
And wake up in the early morning
To clean up the streets
So I can walk luxuriously
Wearing my high heels
Or drive my way
To my warm sweet-smelling haven
And feel sorry
Feel angry
For those who can’t afford
Sleeping with something
In their outworn stomachs
Or those who sneak out of schools
To sell tissues by the traffic lights
So I can dry my tears
And soothe my broken heart
For losing my holy-shit-shopping list.

I’m blind
I’m heavy
Like those blocks making that huge wall
I’m hollow… I’m hollow
Like those bullets directed
To the chests of broken children
I’m a shadow
Like this land
Like this Earth
Like humanity – I’m blind.